Game Over

The moment you realize that all you ever were was a PAWN is a harsh reality to face! Even more so   considering the fact that you didn’t even know you were playing a game. 

This game consists of using parts of you like your mind, body, heart and soul at the leisure of the player.

Taking you down off of the shelf when one of those items is needed and then tossing you at the wayside when their need is fulfilled.

Yet and still you remain broken, used, dusty and downright abused.

So what do you do?

Your head says” YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME…we don’t need this shit”

Your body says “but it hurts so good”

Your heart says “there’s no way this isn’t love, no way at all”

 Your soul is just weary and says “Do what you want; you never listen to me anyway”

So what part of you do you follow? How do you get out of this place you never really knew you were in?

Do you continue to be a pawn because SOMETHING IS BETTER THAN NOTHING?

Do you choose to make yourself an ACTIVE player in the game you now know you’re in and turn the tables?

Or do you WALK AWAY and choose to put YOU first?

You would think the 3^rd is the easiest and best choice right?

Yet somehow we all find ourselves at some point in our lives in this game trying to pick options 1 & 2, by way of FEAR and EGO!

Option 3 should be considered PIECE OF MIND choosing YOU first but we run from that.

Guess we are all just gluttons for punishment…most of the time self-inflicted.

When you make the choice that is YOU above all others and everything else…When you get the courage to finally say GAME OVER…you’ll find yourself amazed at the light at the end of that tunnel that is YOU.

I’m saying GAME OVER…I choose ME…what about YOU?

Yanna

Still His Child!

So I've been listening to this song all day over and over and over again and as I found myself to the point of tears I realize that while I May lose faith and feel like I'm not worthy... he never loses faith in me I am now and will always be his child. I've been blessed with struggle, with winning, with sacrifice, with loss, with gain...all tests placed upon me by him. All I have to do is talk to him and actually listen to what it is he's saying to me. The answers don't always come when I want them and truth is they are not always what I want to hear....but at the end of the day im just a tool in his grand design.  I've come so close to the point of no return....feeling like 5'4" of my 5'5" frame was under water and I was just about to drown.  Thinking I was done he's stepped in and saved me.....truth is he put me in that water to teach me something.  He put me in that water to show me that I cant do it without him and the moment that I forget he will remind me who is actually in charge. There is a blessing in every lesson....everything I've been thru has made me who I am...and for that I thank him!    Guess I've rambled on enough....when I started writing this I did it with this point in mind.....Never sell yourself short you deserve the best and in all things he is with you encouraging you(he himself or even a representative) when you don't have the strength to encourage yourself. 

Love Always
Yanna

This Challenge could be your last......

 It always amazes me the lengths people will go just to say they GOT THAT! The lies told, the tracks covered, the bullshit fed…all to say you got what everyone said you couldn’t have. My thing is why pretend? Don’t portray yourself as something you’re not, don’t present yourself to be offering something you’re really not willing to let go of. You would be surprised how far the truth can get you these days. Instead of making a choice for someone else why not give them the facts and allow them to make the choice themselves. NOOOOOOO that’s too much like right because you want to WIN the GAME…but at what point does someone else's feelings /life choices become a fucking game? You wonder why these chicks & dudes are out here snapping and going fucking crazy. They are doing it because one too many persons played a game with their heads & hearts that they didn’t know they were in. Don’t find yourself being the straw that breaks the back that is CRAZY... IJS think about it. *sips tea and logs off blog*

Love and Kisses

Yanna

NORMAL Differences!!!

Why is it when you don’t follow someones NORM something has to be wrong with YOU?

No two people are alike and we are not always going to want to do the same things.  So why  knock someone  because they are not always running the street and label them boring or prudish? Do you find them telling you that you’re irresponsible and ridiculous for never taking a seat.  No you probably don't because if that’s what you want to do it’s your choice. It has no effect on anyone but you and yours so why should any of us care.  Respect others choices as you would have them respect yours. It’s really quite that simple. Sometimes people need to take heed and just STFU even before they speak!

Ideal Love...Of Myself!

"Falling in love with an idea....praying it comes to pass....falling in love with an idea when in reality you know it won't last.  Take the chance it's worth it for the experience if nothing at all...I'd rather fall in love with the idea than to never have love at all!!" ~Yanna


So I wrote that a few weeks ago it kinda just landed into my head and i decided to put it on "paper"...Im by far no poet but what makes my thoughts any less important than anyone elses. 

Anywho...I've come to realize that letting go and letting in are both very hard lessons to learn sometimes. Waiting for a miracle to happen to make that rather large square peg fit into that extremely small round hole is a bitch. Sometimes we get comfortable in the what if's and what could be's and never allow ourselves to face the reality that we are in fact working on borrowed time that we happen to be wasting. Realizing that  every minute you spend waitng on him/her to get it together is a minute you will never be able to retreive and the result is always the same. He/She is just not ready,He/she is just not sure, so then what do you do? The signs are always there, its a matter of letting go of your security blanket even though its not comfortable your used to it. Let it go and venture out into whats standing in front of you. A lot of people block their blessings all because they are scared to try, scared that it wont work. How do you know if you never make the attempt?

So today my proverbial LIGHT BULB went off (I'm a lil slow sometimes but i be gettin it eventually...*giggles*)...I've decided to let go of what ive been holding on to for the sake of comfort and let in what i didn't want to for the fear of pain. So no more being the one you call when you want to unload your problems without ever returning the favor. Those days are so done...I'm too old to waste my life....

After All These Wings are made to FLY!!!

~Love Yanna~